I recently heard a home school mom say she will never say busy again. She went on to say that being too busy means ‘burdened under satan’s yoke”.
That make me stop and think, being busy is something that has consumed my life. It wasn’t until my recent brain injury, that I realized just how busy I was. My days and hours were literally non stop.As I mentioned in an earlier post, I had 3 concussion the first week of school which put life on hold and kept me at home every single day unless I had to see the doctor.Before this happened, I had every day planned.
Bofore my school year even started, I had signed up for Awana, Spanish classes, co-ops, dance, 5 month practice schedule for the Fort Lauderdale Christmas Pageant, soccer, spelling bees, science contests, cheer leading, youth groups, volunteering, leading bible studies , leading college prep courses, signed up for weekly workout classes with a friend not to mention meet up dates, field trips, doctor appointments ,going to the gym, keeping up with my bible blog and so much more. My calendar, like other years, was packed daily.
When I was forced to sit home for these last 5 months, I found great value in quietness and being with my children one on one- just sitting around in our house. What was I running myself ragged ? I know there are times to step up, I know we want our children to experience everything but perhaps sometimes we should all take a time out. I kept telling myself that I needed it, but I couldn’t see a break anywhere.
It felt so freeing to say no. But wait, I don’t have a problem saying no, it was the necessary things I had problem saying no to – friend and family parties, vacations, classes, meetups, volunteer sign ups, driving places… – everything was put at a stop! a standstill. If you find yourself saying “I’m too busy” way to often, consider giving you and your family a well needed time out. Ask God for help, because if you are like me – I couldn’t imagine giving up anything.
Although I had many painful and terrifying days while I was healing, I had more time with the Lord and more time with my family. I had to let a lot of things go, I had to trust God in all things. I was no longer in control, God was. This was especially trying with one child new to driving, she suddenly had to do all the driving on her own. I had to trust God.
A year ago, I said I can’t wait for January, I’ll be able to slow down. It didn’t happen. Then I said, I can’t wait until summer, I just want to sit on the beach and stare at the waves. It never happened. I was too busy to meet with friends, enjoy time with the Lord and my children. What was going on?
I’ve enjoyed my time off , and occasionally when I have a good. day Ill run an errand here and there and do way too much. When I do this, I’m in bed for 2 days recovering. Maybe God is trying to slow me down. Enjoy each moment and each day, learning how to not be busy – yes, it’s something I must learn and reset my brain to do – to not be so busy.
Keep life from keeping me too busy to hear your leading. I don’t want to live an overburdened life, forgive me for not spending time with you when I know you were reaching out to me. Forgive me for not putting you first place with my chidren. Help me organize and balance the life you’ve given me in a way that truly honors you. I want to lead a life that you will delight in. Show me how to train my children, open my eyes to help me understand Your paths and Your leading. If there is anything in my life that is keeping me from my best, help me to break away and do what is right. Remind me to keep my thoughts on you, for give me for worrying and allowing stress to at times overwhelm me. I am reminded of your love for me, that you are always beside me. I am silenced at the magnitude of this. You, our great and Mighty God, would consider me and my family.
Keep us from being sidetracked and pulled in by the pressures of this world. Keep our feet on the narrow path that leads to eternal life. Help me watch my words and learn to speak blessings over my children and family. Rescue us and show us the way. Thank you for your love, your kindness and the wisdom you give me. Thank you for your Son, Jesus,
Today I am silenced and in Awe of your greatness,
In Jesus name,